~By Wendy Zangari
As Greg and I took a well needed rest from the internet and all things esoteric in the past couple of weeks, we reflected on life and where our future is headed. We spoke of having children or not having children, which is something that really bothers me because I know that we would be wonderful parents, and even if we could bring a child into this world, would we want to in this day and age? Who knows? It is such a difficult subject for me, for both of us, but all we can do is wait and see what happens in our cards and what may lay on the table. I am not relying on anyone’s stories in regards to their communications with E.T.’s, or anyone’s channeling/transmissions. I am going to look inside and find what my truths are, what I resonate with and what I feel as though is a correct assessment of what may be going on with this planet, humanity, and in our solar system.
At this moment, I am lost, we are lost and do not know which direction to go right now, we are still at an impasse and do not know who is credible and who is not anymore. I really don’t know what to believe anymore, truthfully. Are the Reptilian bases all destroyed like Tolec states with his telepathic transmissions? Personally, I do not know. I took down the story because for whatever reason I only had the third article in a series of 5 or 6, then I actually thought about it and this isn’t MY truth, this is Tolec’s truth. 
What I would like to do is be more transparent, even more than I already am. Greg and I were kind of upset that for the next 30 or so years we will be sitting here in bed most days wondering who can get breakfast for us first, wondering how the yard is going to be maintained and cleaned up from all of the brush, laundry that needs to get done and I mean that there is two piles in the basement on the floor and one big pile in our bedroom. I can clean the downstairs because it is tidy, but the upstairs is a mess and I need help and I don’t know what to do. We also need help getting my stuff out of storage, that we have been paying for seven years now, it’s getting expensive and we thought we wouldn’t be in this house still. Now we can’t even sell it if we wanted to, we owe more on the house than it is worth and we have two mortgages. We also need help selling two couches, so that my couches can come out of storage and replace the couches we have there currently. So, this is my reality, I have come to the realization that I try so hard to help other people that I never ask for help for myself. So we need help and we are over our heads here and it’s hard to even write about, but I need to!
This being our soul plan, well I cannot believe that I asked for this life, how could I have asked for this life? Was I absolutely off my rocker? I have been taking care of people most of my life and once I get a glimpse of being able to take care of myself, I get shoved down and I am back to square one, taking care of everyone else.
So is this what I make of my life? Does bad things happen to me because I was a terrible person in other lives? I have burnt my last fuse and I don’t know how much more I can give. My Fibromyalgia has been painful lately and from what I am reading, it is my body saying that it has blown a fuse and it has to rewire, during this process I have to rest and that is it, there isn’t much else I can do. Typing hurts and anything that touches my body hurts, including anything I lay on or sit on as well. So, here I am pouring my heart out to all of you and I am asking for help, because I am not sure what else I can do.
Is life really what you make of it? Or is it your reality that you have chosen? Or are they one in the same? Is life a game that we agreed to here on Earth? If so, this game sucks, I want a refund!
So where do we go from here, in regards to the blog? I have no idea, perhaps you could give us some suggestions or volunteer to be a writer for our site. We need some fresh knowledge and some fresh eyes and some writers. 🙂 That would cover one of the loads I am carrying.
Thank you all in advance for your assistance. 🙂
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