Before I discuss the current, tragic events that are unfolding this week, between two men who I thought respected each other implicitly, and for those of you who have not heard of either of these men, I wanted to give you some history of how I came across them online, our relationship since we introduced ourselves to them, and our interactions with Mr. Basiago and Mr. Webre during that time and up to the present; I thought it would be best to relay some details around those interactions.
You see, Alfred Webre betrayed Wendy and me in an almost identical manner, in July 2012, a little after a year from when we first met. Now I find out via the details Andy has been very transparent about the past couple of days, that this is something of a habit with Alfred Webre, the true modus operandi of a man that I once respected and called “friend”.
We have maintained a cordial relationship with Andy throughout everything that happened between Alfred and us. Andy was very diplomatic during our fiasco with Alfred and encouraged me to try to make peace with him. Although I tried, Alfred was not interested. He did ask one mutual acquaintance to e-mail me to offer his particular version of an olive branch.
It went something like this. I will stop saying things about you, as long as you promise not to say anything negative about me. So I asked the acquaintance to take a message back to Alfred. I said I’m happy to call a truce, at a time when you offer a public apology on every social networking page in which you defamed Wendy and me, along with a full retraction of your statements. I’m still awaiting a response nearly two and a half years later.
Around May 2011, just two months after we launched this web site, I reached out to both Andrew D. Basiago and Alfred Lambremont Webre separately, to introduce myself and to, introduce them to our site. I told them how the story peaked our interest and we were interested in publishing some of the details on our web site.
I explained to them that at some point in the future, Wendy and I were going to start an online interview show and we would love to have them on as guests. They both graciously accepted. We were thrilled to have such important people in the Truth Movement agree to be interviewed by the likes of us, only a short time after our web site went live!
So what was the path I came across, leading me to these two brave proponents of the truth during our dive down into the rabbit hole in 2011? Well the story starts when I was very young…
You see, ever since I was a small child and saw the scifi television show called “Time Tunnel” (Irwin Allen Productions 1966-67), I was fascinated with all aspects of Time Travel. Even as a small child, my mind was screaming out, “Oh the possibilities!” This show premiered on September 9, 1966, the month I started Kindergarten. It ran for one season and was cancelled after 30 episodes. The final episode was aired on April 7, 1967.
I had just turned 5 years old about 5 weeks prior to Episode One, which aired on ABC right after the “Green Hornet”. Although I was too young to conceive all of the possible theoretical implications of time travel until years later, somehow it still intrigued me, as I watched these people from the present, go back in time and interact with people in history!
My young mind was expanded by “Time Tunnel” and other shows including “Land Of The Giants”, “Star Trek”, “Lost In Space”, “Twilight Zone”, “The Outer Limits” to name a few. These shows took me out of the mundane and into a thought-provoking place where the possibilities seemed endless. By the time I was 7 or 8, I was starting to read science fiction books found in my elementary school library as well as other local libraries.
I continued to choose Science Fiction TV series over any other type of show. I still do this today. Watching family dramas and comedy was like watching real life. I saw no fun in watching entertainment about how other people go about their day to day. If I were to categorize my viewing habits, I would say I would be open to watching any entertainment that made me think this simple two-word phrase, “What if?”
Imagine my surprise when I started listening to interviews and reading articles about Andy Basiago, someone who said they “time traveled” in a secret US Government Project around the same time as I was watching these 1960s scifi shows as a boy, regarding the same subject matter that fascinated me; the actuality of being able to move through time was more real to me than ever!
Wendy and I were listening and vetting many alternative news and Black Project whistle-blower accounts trying to find those that rung true with our hearts, and when they did, we shared these stories here on RFTS.
I was fascinated listening to the interviews with Andy regarding his experience as a child in Project Pegasus, a CIA/DARPA Black-Ops Time Travel Project. This lead to listening to interviews and reading about Andy’s participation in the Mars Jumproom Project. What? Teleportation to another Planet in our Solar System? Ok, now Andy’s story pulled me in even more. Real life SciFi? These things were real? I felt like I had been born again, confirming the notion that these “endless possibilities” I had always thought of, had actually happened and possibly were still happening!
I could identify with Andy even more when I found out we were both contemporaries, born in 1961, me in August and Andy in September. I said to myself, “This could have been me!” and I dove in, listening to interview after interview, each time with my heart-based intuition telling me that Andy was not making this up, this was real!
We enjoyed a collegial relationship from the start. We would get permission from Alfred to post his Examiner articles discussing Andy’s story on our web site, as Andy was exclusively having his story detailed in writing by Mr. Webre. Webre was very gracious, allowing us not just to post excerpts, but to post entire articles regarding Andy’s story, and other “breaking news” that Webre published.
We’ve spoken online and on the phone with Andy several times and Webre called Wendy once to interview her because of some obvious pokes at us from the people behind the scenes. You see, just as we were launching our web site, we noticed that Barack Obama’s Official Twitter account was following us – all three of our accounts, our personal accounts as well as our web site-specific account.
Wendy started pushing hard asking Barack Obama in Direct Message (DM) on Twitter, to come clean about his involvement in the Mars Jumproom Project and his training classes with Andy during Andy’s participation in the project between the Summer of 1980 and the Spring of 1984, and the fact that he traveled to Mars several times with Andy via Jumproom. After Wendy sent these DMs to Obama, sometimes several per week, we started noticing things and we couldn’t shrug them off as coincidence.
Although we’ve detailed these events to you in previous articles, I’ll refresh your memory. The “push-back” started when Wendy noticed an unmarked black helicopter, hovering at very low altitude, over the neighbor’s house just across the street from our driveway, while lowering her convertible top and backing out of the driveway.
There was another helicopter of the same design down at the corner of our street, they kept switching positions tracking her over rooftops to the main road, making sure Wendy knew they were following her. When she got to the main road, while at the stop light, Wendy looked up at them, shot them a rude hand gesture, and once they were assured that she spotted them, they turned and headed southeast as she turned and headed northwest.
Now many of you know how tenacious my very brave wife can be. Did this helicopter issue stop her? No! She pushed Obama even harder, asking questions about Mars both in DM and via her public Twitter feed almost daily. Then they took it one step farther. We woke up to find Wendy’s computer, which rests on a table just inches from the bed, and found her Dell Inspiron laptop’s boot.ini file deleted.
The boot.ini file tells the computer which of its components to start up, in a very specific order. Although this file can get corrupted, this is not what happened. The file was totally missing – the file had to be physically removed/deleted. To add insult to injury, the external hard drive where she kept back-ups of all her data, was wiped and reformatted.
Being a certified PC Repair Technician and former System Network Administrator, Wendy was able to grab a new boot.ini file and get the laptop started again. When she did, the video card died and she could no longer see a picture no matter if we used the laptop’s monitor or the large external monitor that was connected to her laptop. We both noticed small marks, which could have been needle marks, on our upper right thighs – we both prefer to sleep on our left sides. Around the same time, our Comcast internet connection became drastically slower than usual.
Within days we started getting calls from all kinds of people trying to get into our house. Security firms contacted us more than once a week offering us a free home security system with internal IP cameras; someone claiming to be a vendor hired by my health insurance company who were actually not, pushed me to make an appointment for a home nurse to get into our house to give me a physical exam and some blood tests; someone saying they were from our local utility company said they needed to come into our house and adjust our gas meter’s wireless settings or else they would shut off our gas; our gas was never shut off. We refused all of these things and refused to let anyone inside the house that we did not know. Mama didn’t raise no fool!
We said to ourselves, how did they know about us before we even started posting articles and getting popular? Much to our surprise, within a couple of months of launching our site, we were being read in 175 countries! We only started the web site to share with some of our open-minded friends and acquaintances, we were floored and humbled.
Did the powers that be see that Wendy and I did something to propel Andy’s Truth Campaign via looking into future events surrounding Andy, during his participation in the time travel projects in the late 1960s and early 1970s? It couldn’t be our methods, they were not threatening in any manner. It had to be the content of the information we were so fervently talking about.
At that point, we decided to back off from contacting Obama again in this manner, we were not making any headway no matter what methods we employed. A month later our internet speed went back to normal. After hearing about our theory, that we may have been viewed during a past time travel project as aiding Andy in his Truth Campaign, Alfred called Wendy on the phone and interviewed her regarding the details surrounding these events, as he was thinking something similar to what we considered, that someone knew that Wendy and I were going to support Andy and that it was possible we would do something significant to push his Truth Campaign forward.
Although Wendy reached out to Alfred a couple of times, asking Alfred when he would publish the interview, he beat around the bush and never gave her a straight answer. This interview never saw the light of day. We wondered why. This made us consider Alfred’s credibility and if he really was there to assist Andy.
Was Alfred just collecting data on us? We even thought that unbeknownst to Andy, that there was a possibility that Alfred was acting as Andy’s CIA handler, either doing so to ensure Andy doesn’t reveal too much at once, or that somehow he would eventually try to discredit Andy sometime in the future, to try to invalidate Andy’s claims when he starting launching his Presidential Campaign “Andy 2016!” and getting some momentum.
We hoped it never came to that but based on the observable data, that’s where my mind went and my heart soon followed. Sadly, it seems that our latter assumption may be a possibility – even if it’s a remote possibility, it’s not something any of us ever wanted to face in regard to Alfred Webre’s relationship with Andy.
Consider this, Alfred Webre spent time at the Stanford Research Institute (SRI) in Menlo Park, CA. If you use the search terms “SRI CIA Connection” you’ll find that most of the grant money came in from our government via the US Department of Defense. There is evidence of Remote Viewing Training – aka the Stargate Project, Electronic Mind-Control via Extremely Low Frequency Electromagnetic Waves (ELF), and experimentation involving LSD and other Hallucinogens to name a few.
It seems our intuition was somewhat correct regarding the fact that Alfred at some point, could have a deleterious effect on Andy’s Presidential run. Even if Alfred wasn’t Andy’s CIA handler, what if Alfred was being mind-controlled in order to discredit Andy!?
Go and do a search on the ELF research that they have done at SRI and you’ll see how this kind of thing might occur. It sounds like something out of a Tom Clancy novel with a little James Bond mixed in. We don’t want to believe that a Federal Agency would do anything like this to our citizens. However, thinking about the recent report released detailing CIA Torture Methods, did you ever think our government was capable of these horrible acts? Now it seems a little more feasible, doesn’t it? What a sad state of affairs.
Here we are just a short time before Andy’s official Presidential campaign announcement, and Alfred turns on Andy spewing forth horrible, vicious lies. This is the last thing we wanted to see happen, but at the same time we felt somewhat vindicated that we weren’t the only ones that Alfred has treated in an unethical manner and that our intuition that we had in July 2012 has served us well.
It seems that Alfred is someone who will “turn on you” if you disagree or push for answers that he doesn’t have. When he turns on you, you are immediately blocked from his social networks, while he goes on a rampage on all of his social networking pages and accounts, spreading vicious lies and untruths regarding his cible du jour (target of the day). En Garde!
Just two days ago on Wednesday, December 10th I started seeing Andy posting details. My mouth dropped to the floor as did Wendy’s. This is what Andy wrote:
“I was deeply saddened and quite astonished to learn of Alfred Webre’s vicious attack on me on Tuesday. His comments were not just false and defamatory, but malicious and intentionally so. Life is an adventure in forgiveness, however, and so I will forbear begrudging injury, and in this time during which we celebrate the birth of the Prince of Peace, wish him only health and happiness this Christmas season.” — Andrew D. Basiago
“Alfred Lambremont Webre — who has always been prone to paranoia and false allegation against others — has, at last, lost his marbles and made a series of false and defamatory statements about me while simultaneously blocking me from the group where he is making them. The statements have been as ridiculous as they are reprehensible. He has even stooped to posting this villainy on the Facebook group page of Coast to Coast AM, a show that I have appeared on seven times, because he knows that George Noory, its host, has invited me to announce my Presidential candidacy on Coast. After I complete my current talk in Yelm, WA on Saturday, I will be flying to North Carolina to meet with my Presidential campaign team (a trip that was scheduled before this dispute with Alfred began), with whom I will be drafting a measured response to Alfred’s libelous claims. The brief will have five parts: first, brief descriptions of the many tortious and unethical acts that Alfred has perpetrated against me during the 15 years that we have been friends and collaborators, which he has always refused to resolve with me; second, an explanation of the cause of the argument between us, that began on a legitimate and factual basis last Thursday before Alfred lost his emotional control and began his campaign of untoward vilification of me; third, a review of the strange and harassing things Alfred wrote to me privately before going on his public tirade; fourth, a summary of the false and defamatory statements Alfred has made against me publicly since December 9, 2014; and fifth my specific denials of all of his false and defamatory statements. The brief will address the fact that Alfred went on this abusive stunt because he panicked when I began to review with him his history of disbarment-level offenses against me. My purpose in drafting such a brief will be to set the public record straight about Alfred’s false charges so that I will not be unfairly subjected to them in the future. I am sorry that Alfred’s inner demons, self-loathing, and pernicious sense of competition with colleagues have finally gotten the best of him. Yet, I do have a right as a human being to defend myself from calumny while striving to see him only as a disturbed individual and not as the monster that he has become in my life. Please pray for our brother Alfred. I am certain that when the true facts are known, this incident will prove highly damaging to his public standing.” — Andrew D. Basiago
Andy started answering questions in this thread and in his response to a request from a group member named Diana, Andy replied:
Diana, Yes, this falling out began initially when I was having my hugely successful trip to Argentina, where when it was posted on the Latin-American edition of the History Channel, the video of my speech at the 17th Congreso Internacional de OVNI garnered over 62,000 Likes and 9,300 Shares. Alfred has endeavored to usurp and claim my successes as his own in the past (more on that in the brief I will be writing) and he was so smarting with envy as that conference progressed that he was writing distracting posts on Exopolitic Mars, one beginning “The Martians are coming! The Martians are coming!” I hope that he can achieve some inner peace in his dotage because ultimately our lives are greater than the respective accomplishments by which we are tempted to compare ourselves to others. Andy
Comments continued to come in for Andy and as always, Andy tried to be as diplomatic and honest as possible. In this question, Matthew wonders if someone has pushed Alfred to do this, by bribe of monetary gain or for other purposes. Andy’s response:
Matthew, Tru, I guess it’s possible. Alfred is a self-described “money monk” who, like me, has always put purpose before the purse. He has no retirement funding . I tried to help him generate retirement income via Bio-Mat, and his distributorship has been flourishing, so that’s good. Frankly, I think his motive may have been envy rather than bribery. He is not really the bribe-able kind. But he even admitted in his private emails to me that he was competing with me rather than collaborating with me. I have always been foolish in expecting the better angels of people’s natures. Recent triggers might have been my great success in Argentina and the news that my Presidential prospects at Paddy Powers in Dublin recently rose from odds of 500:1 to odds of 66:1. I am disappointed that he chose the road to perdition rather than progress because I was going to appoint him UN representative so he could draft and put before the General Assembly the Mars Protection Treaty that we have long discussed. Andy
A woman named Candy came to Alfred’s defense saying that it can’t be jealousy because “Alfred does not have jealous personality in him…”. Andy rebuts:
Candy, Actually, what happened is that Alfred signed onto my campaign as my chief political strategist, then after using his insider status to discern my platform stole it and announced his candidacy for UN Secretary General, with my core issue of disclosing and deploying teleportation as his principal proposal for the UN. Then, a few weeks later, he collapsed his campaign for UN Secretary General. He loved doing this energy-stealing ploy because it allowed him to compete with me by usurping my Truth Campaign about teleportation and then gloating at receiving hundreds of Likes and verbal affirmations for proposing disclosing teleportation even though I had been advocating disclosing teleportation since 2004. This is just one of dozens of unethical schemes he has perpetrated against me since we have been collaborating, with some of them involving a form of competition in which out of a sense of spite and envy of others he competes with others to emulate or steal their life’s work. Then, when one tries to reason with him about the untoward nature of his conduct, he grows very dark and goes to war. This may explain why he has been married and divorced five times, if I am not mistaken. I know that by his own admission one of his marriages only lasted several days. Andy
There are many more details to Andy’s rebuttal, however as Andy has stated, he is going to be preparing a brief, detailing each aspect of the interactions that led to Alfred’s betrayal, along with Andy’s response to each of these ridiculous allegations that Alfred has been broadcasting all over the internet since Tuesday, December 9th.
All of these lies and anger are coming from a man claiming to be fair and balanced. In Alfred’s reality, he calls himself a “Tribunal Judge” of the “International Tribunal into Crimes of Church and State” (ITTCS), which in my opinion, is a powerless mock kangaroo court, who believes that they have the power to take down the Queen of England, the Vatican, Big Pharma and any target of their choosing.
To me, it’s just a scam preying on innocent, empathetic and compassionate people where they collect “donation” money from these people who believe Alfred’s colleague, the fast-talker Kevin Annett, who leads the charge at the ITTCS.
Kevin Annett, Photo: veteranstoday.com
After reading many of Alfred’s articles, I find his writing to be very compelling. Imagine the sensationalist pleas Webre and Annett could weave together, in order to pull on the heartstrings of many, as innocent people sit there and think the ITCCS is actually affecting some type of meaningful change.
Now what I wrote above is just my own personal supposition after seeing how these people operate. To be clear, what I am saying is that although I can not confirm my allegations on this issue, I wouldn’t put it past Alfred and his buddies at the ITCCS based on their observed behaviors and repeated lack of tangible evidence.
This brings us to our personal experience which will illustrate that once you say something that Alfred Webre is unwilling or unable to respond to, he will launch an attack on you that you will never see coming. If he’s true to form, you will never see a retraction of his outright lies; you shouldn’t expect to get an apology either, from this apparently, mentally-unstable man; we didn’t.
As if Andy’s testimony regarding these recent events and the personal attack launched by Alfred on Wendy and me on the evening of July 13, 2012 isn’t enough to convince you that this has been a consistent behavior of Mr. Webre’s, we have one additional “Webre Attack Rampage” (WAR) to show evidence that Andy was telling the truth when he said that he has seen this unethical behavior from his friend Alfred in the past.
Andy told us in his rebuttal to these lies told by Alfred in his current WAR against Andy, that Andy has seen this type of unethical behavior over and over again from Alfred. I was shocked to hear Andy confess this. It seems that there are some Inferiority/Superiority Complex, perhaps even Narcissistic and Paranoid tendencies illustrated by Alfred’s emotional behavior.
Andy, the loving and compassionate man that he is, has publicly forgiven Alfred, although Andy still expects a public apology and full retraction of and ludicrous and libelous statements that Alfred made regarding Andy, and yet Andy states that he believes Alfred is suffering from a type of “age onset dementia”. Andy is worried that his friend of 15 years may be suffering and only wishes the best for him.
Based on our observations and interactions with him, Andy is an honest, loving, compassionate and balanced man. These are traits that our government needs to find not only it’s “leader” but these traits that should be expected from all Public Servants.
I don’t give out my trust easily any longer because years of being taken advantage of while believing that people would treat me as well as I treated them; this has trained me to be more cautious. I am happy to tell you this, Andy Basiago has earned not only our trust, but he has earned our utmost respect.
When Alfred launched his personal attack on Wendy and I in the “All Roads Lead To The Truth” (ARLTTT) Facebook Group that warm July evening, he broke the rules by deleting his horrible accusations a short time later, and had to be banned from the room by our good friend, contributing author to our site and ARLTTT Group Moderator, Kurt Mendonca. Kurt had to put his Moderator Hat on and warn Alfred more than once for his inappropriate behavior within the group. Here’s a man that wanted to lead the United Nation that can’t even follow rules of civility in an online forum, how would he expect to bring about peace and security globally?
We are talking about a rare forum here. ARLTTT is a forum where highly intelligent people from many political and cultural persuasions, discuss many issues, 99% of the time in a very civilized manner. This group is really a model of how humans should treat each other at all times.
Kevin Annett and his ITTCS was the reason that Wendy and I were victimized by Alfred Webre on July 13, 2012. Right before this happened, someone new joined the ARLTTT Facebook Group named Greg Renouf, who seemed to make a career out of denouncing Kevin Annett.
This man Renouf was pretty straight forward in his attacks against Annett and did not hold back. Alfred Webre did not like the fact that Kurt Mendonca allowed Renouf to say these things against Annett and the ITCCS within the ARLTTT Group and made his objections known.
As we try to be unbiased and listen to and value all opinions in ARLTTT, as Wendy and I do, day to day, everywhere we post on social networking, some of the things Renouf started saying were making sense. So we decided, very politely, to ask Alfred for evidence that Annett and the ITCCS actually did make a court filing. We asked for a Docket Number that would be on public record, if the filing actually occurred. A very non-threatening question, I am sure you would agree.
Instead of Alfred being forthcoming and saying this is something he could easily obtain to prove this court filing in Canada actually did occur, he started getting irate at Wendy and me for even doubting him. Webre called Renouf a “paid shill of the Canadian Government” who was out to blackwash the work being done at the ITCCS.
After Alfred’s unkind obscenities and accusations against my wife and me, Alfred deleted these comments from the thread where this discussion was occurring, he immediately blocked Wendy and I from all of his Facebook Groups and Personal Profile pages, then started saying that Wendy and I were “paid shills of the New World Order”, “working undercover for both the Canadian Government and CIA”.
He posted this disinformation on all of his social networking pages, “warning” others to stay away from us and not to listen to us. It was a real smear campaign. Now seeing what Alfred is doing to Andy, it’s like seeing a replay.
The accusations are different but the intent the same; the methodology, identical. It seems the more upset Alfred is when his back is up against a wall, the more brutal and defamatory his attack. If you could equate what Alfred did to Wendy and me as having a pie thrown in our faces, poor Andy had a huge dumpster full of rotten smelling garbage poured over his head.
Hey, Wendy and I are just a couple of people trying to change things locally, things like proposing a community vegetable garden in our local city park for the homeless to our City Council, helping our neighbors start their own organic vegetable gardens, advising the neighbors of the danger of pesticides and showing them how to use white vinegar for weed control and doing research and working on documentation to finally get fluoride out of our city’s water supply.
We’re really nobodies in the big scheme of things folks, so why would Alfred choose to attack us like this? We furthered the reach of Alfred’s personal truth by posting his articles and interviews on our site. The items we posted were not just in regard to Andy, but in regard to other whistle-blowers/insiders that Alfred was writing about. We didn’t ask for anything in return, no link sharing or pat on the back of any kind. We did this out of the kindness of our hearts because we aligned with the information he was sharing, and we wanted to make sure our readers didn’t miss it.
Attacking us is one thing, I thought it was an isolated incident and he was so embarrassed by his behavior he just wanted to make it go away after his rage left him. But to attack an upcoming Presidential candidate, someone whom he has been supporting for years, then trying to defame Andy by saying that Andy is working with Dick Cheney to help Cheney make progress toward an upcoming human depopulation / genocide agenda, killing off much of the human race, only leaving enough slaves to serve the elite, is so vicious and hurtful compared to what Alfred said about us.
Alfred only knew us for just over a year when he attacked us. Andy has known Alfred for 15 years! Think about that. These are really good friends here, some would say brothers in spirit!
Most thought that these two guys would always have each others back, although as I said earlier, I starting having my doubts after Alfred’s attack on us. I figured if Alfred attacked us in this matter, he could do it to anyone. Sadly, it seems that the longer you’ve known Alfred, the more incredibly inappropriate his malicious behavior becomes.
How could we possibly debate and rebut the charges against us, that Alfred only posted on the social networking pages he controlled, if we were banned from these pages? Would you expect this incredibly biased and unethical behavior from a self-proclaimed “Tribunal Judge”? I wouldn’t.
Similar to the outright, vicious lies Alfred is spreading about Andy, we found the things Alfred was saying about us as downright disgusting, but at the same time laughable. We were angry for a couple of days and were very frustrated about not being able to debate the issue with Webre.
If you know Wendy and I through our web site, or our social networking activities, or our activism to label/ban Genetically Modified Organisms and the weed killer Roundup (glyphosate), or our philosophy looking towards the better world we want to help make for the future, one can see that Alfred was off his rocker when accusing us.
For someone willing to take down the Queen of England and the Vatican, he’s scared to debate even “little old me” so I could prove he lied, so that I would have a chance to clear my good name in the forum in which I was accused?
This is how cowards and bigots work.
At the end of the day, Alfred did nothing to hurt our credibility. We didn’t lose friends, we gained them. We gained more readers on our web site as the result of his attack. Hey thanks Alfred!
His smear campaign failed and people forgot about it pretty quickly, however that feeling of how he betrayed us will always be there, warning us that trust can be broken at any time and that we should really value those whose trust we currently hold dear.
I ignore all of his interviews that I see scroll by on Facebook. Instead of being upset when I see these, I snicker now when I see his face on a thumbnail and whisper “Liar” in my head and have a knowing that Karma will one day make Alfred answer for his lies.
My intuition tells me that Karma will be catching up with Alfred Webre any day now. He’s an embarrassment to the entire Truth Movement. If someone can lie so deftly, how can one ever trust or take that person seriously again?
Now let’s move on to another example of Alfred “turning the screws” on someone else, with another of his manufactured “Alfred WARs”. There is a lot of information here, so rather than post it all, as it is all available via the links below kindly provided by Kurt Mendonca, we will just briefly summarize.
This is the story of Karen Hudes, who reports that she was an insider at the World Bank and that there is a plan to release the gold back to the people. Alfred questioned her reporting and motives, which I assume didn’t align with his and under the bus she goes.
This is the original link posted by Kurt. There are links within the original post, be sure to review those as well. Click the image to read this post and it’s content:
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After Alfred’s WAR on Ms. Hudes, she posted a rebuttal which can be found by clicking on the image below:
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As I’ve illustrated in this article, you now have three discrete cases of Alfred Webre displaying this negative emotional behavior and poor sense of judgement. Alfred doesn’t just disagree with you and walk away. Oh no, he spins yarns to defame you and the outlandishness of his prevarications are consistently preposterous.
Alfred has a pretty loyal fan base feeding his ego that falls in the category of “Alfred’s Always Right”. One must wonder what kind of spell he has his patronizing fans under, to have them all blindly follow and believe his behavior is appropriate for someone associated with the “Truth Movement”.
Those are the kinds of “followers” that we can all do without. Any intelligent, rational human, should be able to distinguish between outright, hurtful lies and honest, scholarly debate. When someone accuses you of something then slams the door in your face when all you want a bipartisan forum in which to debate and rebut their allegations, one must wonder what that person’s motives are and why they refuse to provide evidence of their allegations.
Alfred Webre has mastered this ability to strike without warning, put himself in a steel cage, then while locked inside, calls you names and tries to ruin your reputation. I would call him a bully but at least a bully will stand in your face when they abuse you. This guy does it behind the protective layer of his fan base.
Sticks and Stones, Alfred. You are a person I used to respect and call “friend” and now that I know the real truth, I still want absolutely nothing to do with you; nothing has changed. You are an intellectual coward.
I advise you to be careful in your dealings with Alfred Webre and his posse, that is if you still want to associate with him after reading the evidence I’ve disclosed here today. I can’t understand why anyone would want to associate with a dishonest and unethical person like him.
If you do still hold Alfred in high regard, ask yourself why. Would you treat your friend and collaborator of 15 years like Alfred has treated Andy? I hope not. If you agree with Alfred’s tactics, you have no business being part of any Truth Movement. Question why you would hang on to the words and coattails of a liar.
Please join us in supporting Andy as he goes though this devastating betrayal and loss of someone he considered a dear friend.
Special Thanks to Kurt Mendonca, who spent time with me today online and on the phone, pulling together some of the data presented in this article from the ARLTTT side of the fence. Kurt, we’re together in our search for the truth and, as always I appreciate your assistance, guidance and support.
As I think about family this season. I am only going to think about the ones that actually reciprocate caring. There are things I just can’t fix with my siblings because of the way our parents raised us, they have become so closed off from their emotions that they don’t have them anymore, the only emotion they seem to have is anger towards me because I want to resolve the issues, which essentially makes them blame me for their problems (which they don’t have apparently). See how convoluted that is?
So I sit here and realize who my family is, some of you who I speak to on the phone often, others that I speak to online often, some of Greg’s family whom I have met and gotten to know a bit, one out of 5 of my capable siblings (one of my siblings has Downs and I barely have seen her over the years), and Greg and our cats, this is my family.
I can’t change how 2 of my siblings perceive me, I can’t change the way they think that I am the issue of their problems even though we barely speak and we barely talk about anything meaningful. They are all about status, what you do for work makes you who you are and I am not like that, I look at people for who they are in substance (how they treat another), not what they do for a living, that is just ludicrous. I am judged and they don’t trust me because they don’t and can’t trust themselves and they don’t like themselves, but instead are playing a game of life in which they will have to repeat because their soul lost compassion, if it ever had it to begin with. But a wise person told me you can’t have compassion without suffering. I guess they haven’t suffered enough.
One thing about me is that I used to raise my voice to my family because as the youngest of 6, I would get blamed for everyone’s issues and screaming was the way I was shown to get my point across. But instead I was the result of how they treated me, I was just a child and from the time I was about 6 or 7 years old, the family problems were blamed on me, it was easy for them, I made it easy for them. I was a shy kid, I had no backbone as I always held onto mom’s pant leg. I was insecure as a child and my siblings put me into a deeper despair at 10 years old in which I started acting out because no one would listen to the “family problems” in which I pointed out and wanted to fix. I have always been like that, but even then, when I was in my Elementary years I was to blame for all of the problems in the house when they certainly existed way before I came into the world, but it was easy to blame the baby, they couldn’t talk back and adults knew best. So I cowered and thought I was the issue for so many years.
After 30 or so years of therapy (since I was 10), I have worked so hard on fixing the problems that I was instilled with, including behaviors. They have had 0 years of therapy, not one person from my family, no matter how much our father wanted us ALL to go to therapy, I was the only one that was willing. I am glad I did, if I didn’t, I would be a callous, uncaring, insensitive human being, that is who they have become. It is all about appearances and it is all about putting on an heir so others won’t think ill of you. It is also about control, they want control over their lives as well as those around them and I apparently am the one they want to control, but it frustrates them that they can no longer.
After living here in PA for almost 11 years, with no family visiting ever, I know where I stand, in addition to them telling me that they don’t want to speak to me because I bring up things they don’t want to talk about. So I want to fix our relationship, in order to fix the relationship we have to go into the past, get our resentments out of the way (some are based on perceptions) and talk it out, but they can’t, they refuse because they don’t know how to deal with their negative emotions that still linger in the back of their mind. This is what abusive parenting does to children, it closes them up completely so they are a robot going through life because they never got help in how to deal with emotions.
Apparently they state that they don’t have any issues but I am the one with the issues and they don’t want to hear it, which is pretty much exclaimed loudly in these conversations.
When I was 6 or 7 years old, I went to my brothers and sister to talk about our family and why people were screaming at each other, why they were abusing each other and why they were causing so much emotional pain. You know what I got from all of them? “I don’t want to hear it Wendy, it is not my problem, you will have to figure it out on your own”. I am 6 years old, my oldest brother being 20 years old at the time. So it seems while he is 56 years old now, he says the same exact thing, but in a very demeaning, insulting and accusatory way, stating I am the problem, he has no issues except me.
So my mom dies in 2008, both parents now gone. ((My mom used to be the blame in addition to me being blamed, but it was more-so on her (rightfully so)), but when she died it was all transferred onto me all the things she did to us and caused us. I guess it’s easier to blame the one person you don’t speak to for your problems and it’s easier to blame someone who is 389 miles away that you have never visited, someone who has gotten help for 30 years in therapy, who has fixed most of her synchronicities that was undesirable. And I am the problem? Huh? Wondering how that works when I am the one that has grown up, gotten help and fixed a lot of things that were not taught to me correctly and yet they haven’t spent one hour with a therapist ever and have never gotten help whatsoever. This is the result.
So if you have been abused as a child, emotionally or physically, or both, get help, talk to a professional that has an outside perspective (teachers, guidance counselors, therapists, etc.) and can help you grow your emotional wellbeing. Don’t stagger in life, don’t accept nothing but greatness for yourself and don’t let others blame you for their own issues, it may not even be your fault and in my case it isn’t my fault. I struck a cord and I was attacked, bottom line.
If you don’t want a child that has a lot of emotional problems in life, treat them with respect, listen to your children, give THEM the benefit of the doubt and show them they are loved without question. Give them confidence and show them that the world is their oyster and they have a lot to offer the world.
I was not a confident child, I didn’t start becoming confident until this year believe it or not. This year was a catalyst for me to grow up some more, detach from family that is toxic and not hope for a relationship with them. It has taken me many years to get to this point, don’t let this happen to you or your children. Give them the tools to grow in this world, don’t stifle them and show them how with love and respect for themselves and others.
Salvia Divinorum is a species of the Sage plant whose active ingredient is DMT (N,N-Dimethyltryptamine), a consciousness altering chemical naturally secreted by one’s Pineal Gland located near the center of the human brain. This gland, responsible for secreting many neurotransmitters, is also known at the “Third-Eye” because internally, it contains rods and cones just like an eyeball.
The Pineal’s primary job is to secrete and begin the Melatonin/5-HTP/Serotonin cascade, which starts the sleep cycle. You’re “Third-Eye” can tell you’ve closed your eyes and it’s dark and that’s when it starts to help you fall asleep. These chemicals are responsible for causing you to go into REM dream-states.
Although DMT is also secreted by the Pineal, it’s not made in large enough quantities to make you feel the effect. But I’ve often wondered, if schizophrenics have overactive DMT production in their brains, making them have one foot in each “world” if you will, is this the gland from which the audio and visual hallucinations in schizophrenics may be originating?
Recently, it’s been discovered that the Pineal Gland can also “see” the color Sky Blue. It was proposed that if you look at this color when waking up in the morning, it resets your bioclock to help you wake up and stop the melatonin production cascade.
DMT is also the active ingredient in the South American Shamanic concoction called Ayahuasca, which induces a many hour experience that has been found to relieve many ailments, both physical and psychological, according to anecdotal reports.
To learn more about DMT, make sure to check out the “go to” source in a reading or video format, called “DMT: The Spirit Molecule” by Rick Strassman, MD. According to Rick:
“I was drawn to DMT because of its presence in all of our bodies. Perhaps excessive DMT production, coming from the mysterious pineal gland, was involved in naturally occurring “psychedelic” states. These states might include birth, death and near-death, psychosis, and mystical experiences. Only later, while the study was well under way, did I also begin considering DMT’s role in the “alien abduction” experience.” Source: http://www.rickstrassman.com/
If you are a visual learner, you can watch the video here:
The leaves of the Salvia Divinorum plant are dried, then smoked, however some South American rituals will involve drinking a slurry made out of the leaves after heating. There’s a great site for this called “Sage Wisdom” that’s been around since the 1990s; probably the most consolidated, inclusive site on the entire internet when it comes to this ancient healing and meditative plant.
Although you can try this inside your home, it’s recommended to use this outdoors in nature, sitting under a tree. There is more of a chance that you could hurt yourself physically if you trip and fall over something in your home. To me, nature is always best for experiencing these types of substances that modify your reality. People have reported that the experience is “better” and they feel “more in touch” when using this substance in a natural setting.
Make sure there is someone you trust nearby who is not using it. You may try to get up and walk around to touch these things that you see and if you do, there is a good chance that you can hurt yourself. The other person will try not to interfere, but make sure that you won’t hurt yourself. If you do use Salvia inside, make sure a friend is there as well – if you try to get up, tell your friend to make you stay seated, and help direct them back to their seated position. Remember to tell them to speak calmly to you when doing so.
Although your friend may not be in your vision, you’ll still be able to hear and respond to them. However, you don’t want your friend to say or do anything if you’re calm and seated, otherwise they may distract you from this learning. In most cases, you won’t freak out or try to walk around, but for your own safety, make sure someone is there that you trust.
It’s not likely that your friend will have to look after you for very long, we’re only talking 15 minutes and then you can reciprocate if they are using it too. After a puff or three (each person needs to learn how much they need for the effect), it’s a short 5 to 15 minute trip to another reality, which some have described as “another dimension”.
Try not to do it in a party setting like these people are doing in the video below. Although there is someone letting this woman know she’s ok and he gently guides her back to the couch. I still disapprove of this type of setting where people are using it “to get high” in a group setting, but I highly approve of how the trusted friend handles this woman.
In my personal experience, I felt my temperature go up a little, but not enough to bother me or to make me sweat profusely. It’s much different that the sweats you may experience not long after taking LSD. This happen to most people due to the psychological anticipation and sometimes a subconscious fear of what they may experience. Stay calm. It helps.
The video below details a more “spiritual experience”. “I was everything then I was nothing!”
Of all the experience reports I’ve seen, the video below was the most potent and the most spiritually aware that I’ve come across recently while doing this research. If you watch any of the videos embedded in this article in their entirety, this is THE ONE to watch. It’s well worth the 9 minutes 40 seconds of your time. This video may even stimulate you to go out and get some saliva immediately if you’re thinking about expanding your connection to, and understanding of, the Universe!
As you read the Experiential Reports on the Sage Wisdom site, you’ll see lots of common elements surfacing. Reality melts away and you go someplace distinctly different. People seem to be transported to a nature setting, seeing unknown creatures, sometimes animals and lots of times a Goddess type figure emerges.
Many reports show consistency, saying the “Goddess” figure is a plant based creature and some say it’s more like a reptile plant creature. Some say they gain information from this “Goddess”. Most agree it can be a positive, life-changing experience. Some people say they can see and understand things more clearly after a Salvia Divinorum journey, which improves their lives going forward.
Why has the US Government banned many of these hallucinogenic drugs that seem to help people as much as they do? It’s about money and greed folks. Specifically the greed generated by the United States corporate-controlled Healthcare, Pharmaceutical and Insurance industries. This is done to make sure that all of your health care needs must be maintained through the Rockefeller-initiated American Medical Association. It’s a control mechanism plain and simple.
However this seems to be changing as university researchers are using hallucinogens researching many diseases and disorders both physical and emotional. This includes past and current research using cannabis and LSD, with the most recent research being focused on the active ingredient in Magic Mushrooms called Psilocybin.
University of Southern Florida is now researching psilocybin. They have found that at a subclinical dose, i.e., a dose where the participant does not experience any hallucinogenic effects, within a few sessions, they have been able to reduce fear in mice. The outcome was s0 positive that the Dept of Defense is now endorsing this research study with a grant, hoping that they will be able to use this procedure on war veterans experiencing Post Traumatic Stress Disdorder (PTSD)!
It was recently discovered, that a once per month, full on trip level dose of psilocybin, can stop cluster headaches and some migraines, as shown on a recent National Geographic TV special (short video excerpt linked here).
Could it be that these “brain remedies” were made illegal so that we would have to turn to synthetic drugs for cures? It’s hard to make money from a common herb that anyone can grow, so why not make them illegal or take these cures out of the history books so that control, both psychologically and physically, will be taken out of your hands and put into the hands of corporations, who dictate this paradigm to our Government, who follows it to the letter of corporate law if you will.
Why be a slave? Free Your Mind, Free Your Life. That’s my motto!
I bought some of the dried herb and tried it over a decade ago before I met Wendy – you can also buy live plants that you grow then dry out yourself, which I should have done. When I tried it, I think it had lost it’s potency. My experience went like this – I took a few puffs and laid down to relax while my ex watched over me.
Almost at once I felt like I was doing a deadman’s float on a large body of water. I felt my body rippling. It was calm and serene. Then my temperature felt like it went up a degree and my body felt like a twisting barbershop pole or like a soft warm candy cane being made with hot sugar…I was twisting in a circle but not in a bad way. It ended like that, as fast as it started. It’s like I was almost over the edge with whatever was to come into view, but it was just out of reach.
This was between the time of my two back surgeries in 2003 and since I was on other meds, I thought it may be better to wait until my body did not have other pharmaceuticals in it. I had hypertension at the time and I was on narcotics. I wondered if the increase in body temp would affect my BP so I was reluctant to try it again. Once I was off the medication, I didn’t bother trying it again – I figured if it was stale when I used it, it would be even more stale at that time. If I were to try it again, I think I’d buy the live plants.
When you ingest/inhale the right quantity for you, you cross all the way over or through a “membrane” to a different reality, as the report below details. Remember, there are lots of consistencies regarding what people experience as I noted above. Here’s an excerpt from one of the Experiential Reports on Sage Wisdom:
“This third hit was magnificent. And I held it in for about 20 seconds or so, feeling it pulled deeper into my lungs, or so it felt, the whole time. I felt my senses transform in a way that was quite interesting, in that there was really nothing I could pinpoint as “different.” Then I realized that I was seeing the world for the first time, in a quite real and convincing way. But it was harsh: it was a flash of sensory overload. It was as if there were a certain barrier that this salvinorin passed through, and then, there I was, immediately: in a completely different place. It pushed me through some kind of membrane, and it happened in the blink of my mind’s eye. Feeling the whole garage (I know, what a setting) become brighter than anything I have ever imagined, very unfamiliar because it seemed so real. It leapt from the usual mundane view to something so frighteningly *in-my-face* that it was as if I had never known it, seen it before. Never seen ANYthing. As I exhaled this smoke, so deliberately and slowly, I realized that I could freak out–this was a complete shift in reality. This was like having new existential eyes. I mean, it was the same me, the same place, the same eyes, senses, and feeling–but there was something shockingly ineffable about it. And wasn’t I supposed to feel *fucked-up* if I was on this intense a trip?”
“It was as if I had been born again. But it was not exactly so, because I didn’t feel really “different.” What was it????”
“Well, as if to answer my question, a whole layer of reality ricocheted out of space into my head. A sound: a voice, and a whole bunch of some-sort-of-smurf-elf-like creatures that seem to comprise DMT hyperspace. I swear to you, there were entities there, and they were playing! They were dancing and swirling, laughing and living in complete, unadulterated bliss! I could glance at them, astonished and with my eyes probably as wide as the gap between my chin, as it lay on the floor, and my upper lip. Real animals came out of nowhere and all of a sudden I was on the verge of their village! It was like this, I was watching one of those jukeboxes, except that it is an experiential jukebox, and the records are not just phonographs, and they are not recorded sounds of us humans and our music, and they are unreal, in this respect; these *are* layers of reality, and one of them just flipped out from the astral pile in my consciousness (or was it really just my consciousness??) and played to my mind in vivid detail. It was as if I was the needle, as crazy as I know this sounds, and the life of a whole fucking cosmos was being played to my Soul, as encaptured by some layer/disc of reality. That is what it seemed like.”
There are many reports to look through and after reading, them one starts wondering if they would like to experience this new awareness. Remember folks, this isn’t about getting high. This isn’t about having a Timothy Leary type far out Woodstock acid trip. No, this is a Spiritual experience and that’s how one must approach it. It’s not something to be toyed with, but more about embracing this as a learning experience.
You may wonder if Salvia Divinorum is legal in the country where you live. That’s something you would have to research in your particular country. Per this Wiki page on the legal status in the USA, it states:
“Despite this a number of states have proposed their own legislation. For example Louisiana, Missouri, Tennessee, Delaware, Florida, Illinois, North Dakota, and Minnesota have so far passed laws prohibiting Salvia divinorum. Salvia divinorum remains legal in other states, however. Though some bills have died during session, the situation is subject to further change pending the outcome of more recent bills still at the proposal stage.”
Like any mind-altering substance, make sure to absorb as much as info as you can on SageWisdom.org, if you’re thinking about experiencing Salvia Divinorum. You won’t be doing this for fun; it’s not a game, it’s about personal growth and expansion of your consciousness.
If you do consider a Salvia Divinorum experience and want to report your anecdotal findings, let us know and we’ll create a follow up article that includes these reports in 2015. If you’re interested in making this update possible next year, just hit the Contact Us link on the “Info/Contact” top menu tab and shoot us an e-mail, and shoot us an e-mail through the “Contact Us” link in the submenu. Once again, I must remind you to please be safe when using this powerful, mind-altering substance.
I was checking my YouTube Channel E-mail today and this guy sent me his video. Please watch the video, then you can check out the response I left for him.
I do hope it helps him, he’s way wrapped up in religious mind control. I hope I wasn’t too harsh, I tried to be kind, but you know, there is a time when you have to call someone on the carpet for lack of evidence.
I asked lots of questions and we’ll see how openhearted and loving he is based on his response, if he responds at all.
I hope he does, I would love to expose him to more resources. I was a blind sheep once too and I broke out of it, so anyone can, there isn’t anything special about me; I’m just a homo sapien walking the Earth with the rest of you on this 3D playground of physicality, in which we come to develop our souls via learning lessons of the Divine Graces.
I’m not out to change anyone. Change is up to the individual. However, I’m happy to share what I’ve learned if asked.
If this video was sent to you, how would you have responded?
Please leave a comment, I’m interested in how your personal view would have affected your response.
We’re all here to learn without exception; we all make mistakes from which we hopefully learn. But what I love about we humans, is that most of us, if asked, would be willing to help out just about anyone. At the end of the day, most of us are good souls and that makes me smile.
Now on to the video…
So what did you think of what he said? Here was the comment I left on his video:
Your only evidence is a few quotes from a book? Only one source? Do you realize how many ancient sacred scriptures there are outside of Christianity? Do you know how many times the paradigm of Virgin Birth around the Winter Solstice, God Man born, God man dies, God man is reborn has played out in history? You may want to look it up but you’ll need to pick up another book, one that doesn’t say “Bible” on the front.
Now I do agree that much of the New Age teachings were created by the elite NWO agenda to gather the people under one religion, that will give better control of the people. If one falls into that trap, they will be waiting to be saved just like you are…don’t go for the carrot on the stick, Grow your own carrot and eat it.
Check out the Law of Attraction, it’s a very nice code to live by. It leaves everything up to you to be happy, sad, win, lose, whatever game you want to play here on Earth, all you need to do is create the positive or negative thought process. We’re much more powerful than you realize, but the church doesn’t want you to look inside, they will lose you once you realize the truth.
Then at the end of the video, you have the audacity to force your religion on us and do an incantation? What gives you that right? I had to stop the video because I didn’t want any of your mumbo jumbo in my space. Perhaps you should put a warning in your info that you’re doing an incantation so people can choose whether or not to view it.
Telling people they will get seizures and possessed by evil Gods by doing yoga? That’s just laughable. And crystals have spirits inside? No crystals vibrate at a frequency. You know crystal AM radios? Are you going to tell me each radio is possessed? And water science? Have you viewed Dr Masaru Emoto’s scientific research, or do you just poo poo it because it’s not in the bible?
You have nothing to validate your claims and the bible is your only resource, which is a very weak argument. Your invisible Jehovah said so, through a prophet and you automatically accept it as fact, no matter that it’s been translated through 4 languages before it gets to English. Have you even read the straight translation of the Lord’s Prayer translated form Aramaic directly to English? It sounds more like a New Age poem!
I was raised Roman Catholic, went to a Roman Catholic university, but in the early 90s I decided to turn my back on the hypocrisy. Watching the Pope sit on a gold throne in a gold room, sitting on the most real estate holdings in the world and yet we still have starving people all over the world.
So I tried Episcopal, ie Catholic Lite. Was even more disappointed when the minister said there would be no homily that day because Mr Murphy was going to come up and talk about the church budget.
I searched for a few years and was turned on to Paganism, specifically Wicca, which I practiced for around a decade. There was a dichotomy, it made me feel empowered as I was in control of my faith but at the same time it left me feeling empty and that was a decade ago, I’ve grown much spiritually.
After much research and practice, I am now able to connect with the Universe/God/Great Spirit/Creator myself. I can do this by looking at an organic veggie growing in my garden, or looking at a cloud, or a child playing ball or by meditation.
I protect myself when I meditate so that my sacred space is pure. I go inside for the answers, I listen to my heart, I am a very compassionate, loving person, I help my neighbors, I give veggies from our garden to the local shelter (Hey Jesus, 1 in 30 kids in America are homeless, WTF dude?) for all intents and purposes you would equate me a “Good Christian” LOL (which is kind of funny as most Christians are hypocrites when it comes to walking the walk), however, what I do is real, from my heart and not to grant me entrance into Heaven – pssssst, we’re going there anyway). I don’t feel guilt for which I need to be forgiven, I can forgive myself. You should try it, it’s very freeing.
Don’t you see how you have been personally subjugated waiting for a savior that will never arrive? You have no idea the power hold they have over you. You my friend have become a slave, like I was.
Do you have any other scientific evidence outside of your opinion and the few pieces of scripture that you’ve quoted? Because with all you’ve said, you haven’t convinced me.
I think you’re still on your journey, you have so much of your life ahead of you. Once you hit 40 or 50, you’ll be in an entirely different mindset. Around that time, a choice is to be made, you’ll be faced with a challenge as a person with a personal mission which will be focused on for the rest of your life, it happens to many of us and your spiritual growth will be determined how you relate to this change, this new mission if you will.
However, if one stays tied and blinded by organized religion, in many cases, one remains a sheep. God is in all of us, no one is any better than anyone else. No one’s spiritual practice should be called on the carpet without rational. Who gives you that right? Note that I am not putting down your practices, to each his own. However I am taking a stand on how you’re preaching to people with very little evidence, if any. We all do what we do either out of Fear or Love.
Are you God fearing? Or do you choose Love? That’s the real question. If you treat people like you want to be treated, you have nothing to worry about and you don’t need a religion to act this way. Best of luck in your journey brother. I wish you Peace.
Life has a way of changing whether or not you expect it or want it to. You grow up, you learn about things you never thought you would ever learn about yourself or others and you grow. You give so much of yourself, you feel as though you get nothing in return, but is that really the case? Think about all of the things that you gained, an awareness of oneself and others, learning from the experiences that you had gone through during that time. You gained more than you think.
Being alive and aware makes one think more, the brain cells are always moving and always regenerating. You are always thinking about how you can be a better person and gain self awareness, self control, and self esteem, but if you look at self, you have to look at others to learn about self.
Is that judging? It is not judging unless you are trying to create a scenario in which you are pointing fingers at another for the way they behave. Perhaps when you do that you should look at yourself, see what things you don’t like about that person’s behavior. It might be because you don’t like what you see within yourself.
Sometimes I look at others behaviors and they simply don’t make sense to me, I turn my head sideways, my forehead crinkles up and I can’t seem to understand why they are acting in a way in which I just don’t quite understand. In this case I look at the behaviors in a different way, I look at them and sometimes I see someone who has grown up in a household in which they might have been abused, their husbands do everything they say in fear or don’t listen to them at all, they aren’t respected in their households, but feared or thought of as less than.
Can I blame them? Yes and no, it’s all in their upbringing that has affected the way in which they act and that could mean who you associated with in life that also brought you your ideals, morals, values and realities, not just your immediate family. But everyone can get help once it is recognized, but recognizing their bad behaviors is another issue people seem to have. They look elsewhere and point fingers at others for their own issues, some have PTSD and some with learned behaviors.
These kind of people use control in other areas of their lives to feel like they are in control, but what they are really trying to say is that they are out of control.
Either way, because of the ways in which you are pushed in life by situations and people you meet, whether or not you are upset about it at the moment or resentful at others for the way it had occurred or how they acted, think about how grateful you should be about the outcome. Other avenues open, ones you never thought would, especially when you were caught up in a world that wasn’t for you. You always gain knowledge through experiences, good or bad.
When you try new things in life, you gain more self knowledge, self awareness, self control and self esteem and you learn how to deal with all sorts of different kinds of people, usually through trial and error, but that is how it works. It always helps you work things out when those type of people arise in your life again and they will.
While working with GMO Free PA (I quit as of last month), I learned that politicians and owners of organizations or companies are no different than you and me, they are regular people that were in the right place at the right time, worked from the bottom up or knew people with money. Some people are in it for their own interests, some are in it to help others, some are in it for their personal rights, some are in it for fighting for fairness and some are fighting for their survival. Each one has a personal interest, usually based on the people they love or themselves. But in the end, we all came together for one cause.
There were some that I met and saw them running things in a different direction, they put projects out there in which they want to see the world, a free world, a world where all skills and all things are equal, nothing is less than the next. We are all equal!
They want to have everything be a trade society, they give things for free and take things for free. A depot of free stuff that others no longer use anymore. They teach others to live sustainably, how to grow their own gardens, how to become a beekeeper, how to know which weeds to eat in your yard, how to make your own water and filter it. All basic ways in which our world once ran.
They have a Time Bank in which they trade skills, where one person does a job for free for someone based on their skill and you pay it forward with a skill you may have, to someone else. All based on time (how much time you put in), no job is greater than the next. This is a group of people who started an organization in their town (which is a couple towns from where we live), hoping it will spread to other surrounding areas. I hope it does, this is an amazing paradigm!
I met CSA (Community Supported Agriculture) owners and saw how they grow their produce sustainably on their farm, I spoke with Senators that introduced our bills and ones that were running for Governor of our state. I met business owners and questioned their practices and saw how the other side thinks in regards to GMOs and their profitability (which that’s all it is, profit) and how the farmers no longer have to do a lot of leg work in the fields.
I went to Farmers Markets spoke to communities, educated them on what is in their food supply, some took it well, some gave backlash in which they thought it was an amazing technology. However, there were more people concerned than there were that gave me backlash, I have to say that! I even went to Food Festivals and went to major events in our state where politicians spoke and had the floor.
I learned how to speak to people without being in their faces, the best way to express what you know is through knowledge. Speak calmly and if the person doesn’t quite understand or have a good grasp on what you are saying, give them resources to look up on their own. I find that people don’t want to be spoken to, they want to have a conversation with you, they only hear what you say if you say it in such a way that doesn’t infringe on their current beliefs and that isn’t thrown at them indignantly.
So teaching people that are so varied in the way they think was difficult, but I spoke to people with confidence (whether or not I was), I studied and researched and kept up to date with the latest and greatest studies being done. I didn’t want to slip into the unknown when someone asked me a question. I didn’t want to have my local monthly meetings and not have people understand what I am saying.
I stumbled in the beginning, as we all do, and I lost confidence, but towards the end I learned more about myself, more about my community, more about politics, more about non-profits, more about laws, and more about my own confidence. I gained it more firmly or so I thought, but it fell apart when I left!
In the end, I saw myself being lost and using my title as my identity. I saw my Ego get bigger as I learned so much in so little time and I was a leader for a County in my state, That was huge to me and I let some of that go to my head, but I didn’t realize it until I left. All of this made me feel important, like I mattered, like I was being listened to finally. But…
When I left I wondered who I was, what I was going to do now, how I was going to continue in my life, what is my path now? Who am I?
How can this be? How can I have so much confidence in what I am doing and yet when I gave up the position, I felt useless? I had no direction.
Then I looked at what I had accomplished, how I was an asset to the organization, but how I felt used and abused by them and not appreciated as appreciation is shown, not spoken. It never happened and I never felt appreciated, no matter how many “Thank You’s” I got.
I built their website last year and this year handed it off to others to continue, it was also a tough thing for my Ego, but I knew that it was not about my Ego, it was about a bigger thing, bigger than me and I pushed my Ego aside, trained the new Administrators, gave up my position and went on my way.
Even so, it turned from Ego based to angry at them for being this way towards me and the rest of the organization. I was sad and angry at myself that I left, but sadder that things didn’t work out, I was crying and feeling a loss. I was confused and up in arms about the situation.
I then looked at myself and what I had gained from this experience in the past year, I couldn’t be angry or sad about the experiences I had, which made me grow exponentially into a person that is confident and can speak their mind (in person) without fear, to anyone of any stature or position. I turned that anger to understanding and appreciation for what I did, for what we did as a group of people for the betterment of society.
The emotions that went through me seemed like a death in the family had occurred, I went through all the stages it seemed.
What I gained was a sense of self, confidence to speak my mind to others in person rather than on paper, doing it eloquently and without anger, without pushing them in one direction or another, just explaining the facts ma’am. It helped in many avenues of my life and the different types of people I encountered.
This was one of my resolutions late last year, to speak up (nicely, of course), even to those who have hurt me and to let them know that they have done so. It gets it off of my chest and it is something I had to give away, the anger, to be able to move on in life without harboring bad emotions moving forward. So far this resolution has been in full force this year, I have lost friends (if they were friends to begin with as you never know nowadays with social media) and I have gained friends (ones that align with my thinking and enjoy my company as I theirs).
I learned how to speak publicly in forums, I have learned how to lead a group of people to show them and teach them and help them grow. I learned the lengths that I would go to help another human being out, I learned about how to tone down passion in a voice, but still have it in your heart where it is heard. I learned about who I am and not through a title, but through experiences.
I had to go through this process in order to get to this place, this place of contentment that what I did was an amazing thing that I did for the sake of humanity. This is confidence, not arrogance. This is love of self for being the best person that I know how to be, it is the person I knew I could always be, but had to go through the pain and suffering to get here, to be able to say that I actually feel as though I gained myself and didn’t lose a thing, is huge for me.
Whether or not people know me from my writing or my social media pages, they truly don’t know me because I don’t show you all of me. Does anyone? We all have behaviors we are embarrassed about and don’t want to acknowledge them. They make your face turn red, your heart stop, your face contort into a weird smile, when all you have to do is recognize the behavior and see it for what it is and grow from it, learn from it and try not to do it again if it is so undesirable. Apologize for your behavior and move on, but most people hurt others when they are embarrassed.
I try to be as transparent as possible, but there are some things I too get embarrassed about, but how are we going to learn from each other if we don’t speak about it and discuss our shortcomings? Our souls need to grow, isn’t that why we are here in the first place?
Grow from that, see how you are behaving towards another and look at the dynamics in which you spoke to them. Find out why? Get to the root of your emotions. This is how you search for self!
I grew from that, I see that I am just like you and you are just like me, we may not always agree, but we can always agree to disagree and learn from our experiences and grow from there!
This is the process of becoming self aware! It can be painful, but isn’t growing up painful? Without pain we wouldn’t have greatness to compare it to!